I’ve always loved this song, growing up. It has appeared in a lot of movies, 2 that sticks out for me, would be ‘Hearts & Souls – starring Robert Downey Jr’ and ‘Sleepers – starring Brad Pitt, Robert DeNiro’. And that was all that it has been for me. A really cool song. And it coincides with the happier moments in those 2 classic movies. Well I’m under 60 years of age, so those movies are considered classics for me.
Now, though this Frankie Valli song holds a whole new meaning to me. With my son being almost 4 months old, this song acts as my handrail in fatherhood. My mantra, my wish list, and hopefully will be my proud scrapbook. I don’t mean to wish to speed up any development process that he is going through. I AM NOT taking things for granted. I relish every time spent with him, knowing that I can’t rewind back into these moments, once passed. What I really mean is, Fatherhood is my dream and aspirations in life. And now that it has arrived, it has become the new me.
I no longer care about the missed outings with friends. Nor the cancelled snooker games, poker nights, and drinking sessions. I am happy just to be with him. Knowing that he needs me. I don’t want to miss out on any firsts, just because of trivial adolescent commitments. Cos frankly, none of these measures up to just 1 smile from him. In those special moments, I can feel my burdens and worries disappears, we are lost in that delicate moment, just the 2 of us. Moments, that to me feels to so fragile and precious, that it might be evaporate with a slight whisper.
Like footprints on a beach of my soul, I will carry him. Until I see tiny footprints next to mine. Even then, there are times when there are only my prints, for I will be there when he needs to be carried. Eventually my son will walk like a man, and I hope there are times when I see his prints and not mine. For he would be there, during times when I need to be carried.